kohzhihao; tanqianyi ♥

went off t meet daryl earlier on. ahhas. and so we talked and talked and talked till the mall closed. it's been such a long time since i last talked to him for such a long time luhs. so it just got me wondering. ahhas. i actually said something to daryl that i think he will remember it for life.

am watching fear factor now. omg! it's just ultimate gross luhs. squirted squid liquid. ahhas. manda used to laugh whenever i said that. manda, please tell me it aint true. i am NOT shaken. am i? omf! wth luhs. i said 'do you know that i used to always feel happy whenever i see you at my house? and now it's like the feeling is coming back all over again'. fcuk luhs. i can't believe i said that to daryl. that's not the worse part. the worse part is that he BLUSHED! omg! i made daryl blush and he didn't say anything else after that.

what is this ~~feeling~~?

my evil side

<3 nicole's birthday party luhs. so extremely cool! sorry guys, i was like so out of sots that day. i love manda's bikini! ahhas. sexy girl. was like talking to daryl most of the time. he's a really nice guy luhs. HOT AND HANDSOME like shawn. ahhas. omg! i am so attached to him. thanks daryl for that meaningful talk we had. will never forget what you told me. (:

didn't stay over at nicole's house with sher. went to manda's with lexa, lav and jing instead. were up talking non-stop and bullying lexa. ahhas. sorry luhs gal. went home at only 8am last morning. and sher! where are you? still not willing to come home? ahhas. oh yeaps. daryl, stac will not miss your birthday party luhs boy.

manda manda. where are you? i need a major help! please tell me the truth. am i shaken? am i am i? omg! extra luhs.

my evil side

went off to town yesterday with my darling hot bro SHAWN! and like i said, girls were ogling him luhs! ahhas. and from the look on their face, yes, i know, they envy me much! well, shawn is my HOTTIE HOT HOTTIE! he is just simply irresistable! so he bought this huge teddy bear for his sweetheart luhs, which obviously is NOT me. ): heys, he already has a sweetheart and she's evelyn dear! ahhas. evelyn is my best chatting buddie! and well, she passed almost all the criteria and so, she passed by me! but well, of course shawn bought another teddy for me but it's so much smaller luhs. went to op and om! saw this cute sleeveless top but it cost a whole 40bucks! ahhas. now you can guess why i brought shawn along! heys, i have a NEW top. (:

and next off to esprit, bought a new belt and a new wallet! hehs, thanks shawn. took some extra cool neoprints with shawn. ahhas. especially one where i kissed him! omg! priceless. evelyn dear, don't get jealous ks? i only kissed him on the cheeks. ahhas. and besides his 'ups' and 'downs' are all seen by me before. omf! when we were young luhs. what were you thinking? shawn bought a pair of sneakers and a new cap luhs. like how diao can. he seldom wears a cap and yet he bought one for like 50bucks! designer brand. whatever luhs. it's HIS money. ahhas. and a new gucci sunglasses for me! <3 you shawny big hunky. guess what? i bought a new bikini! ahhas. i know, shawn has bought lots of stuffs for me and so, being a good and angelic sister, i can't let him foot the bill. so yes, i bought the bikini myself. so effin hot can! am gonna wear it to nicole's birthday party.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE!

i know. you are touched by me. ahhas. am gonna meet manda and the gang at interchange luhs. omg! loads of people luhs. an unlawful gathering. ahhas. lame can. and nicole, don't you worry girl. i won't miss your party for anything. not even if he's going. (:

my evil side

it's my life and i will never ever ever regret it says:
hell o stac.
`love. [is everlasting?] ahhas. kitty stac lil me says:
mello mello
it's my life and i will never ever ever regret it says:
whet u doing?
`love. [is everlasting?] ahhas. kitty stac lil me says:
whet i doing? *diao*
`love. [is everlasting?] ahhas. kitty stac lil me says:
ahhas. i am hammering shadow.
it's my life and i will never ever ever regret it says:
hvnt seen shadiw for a long time.
it's my life and i will never ever ever regret it says:
miss him.yeah.
`love. [is everlasting?] ahhas. kitty stac lil me says:
yeaps. why? you wanna HUG him?
`love. [is everlasting?] ahhas. kitty stac lil me says:
ahhas. he stinks.
it's my life and i will never ever ever regret it says:
yeah.he's cute.

ok. so you must be wondering why did i put this conversation here. well, this is a sample of a lame and boring conversation two people can have when they are bored out of their wits. ahhas. oh yeah! tml's nicolelai's party. omg! what the hell am i gonna wear. guys guys! give me a clue!

so it's like wth. fcuk. i ran up and down my house for about 15 minutes just to burn my carbs. ahhas. my mum thought i was mad and well sher just said my madness had evolved. i just somehow think that i am FAT! great. finally all those years of non-stop choco eating has taken it's toll on me. but hey! it's all because of brandon luhs. he said that i have a double chin! omf! brandon, you have a 'italy' on your tummy luhs. ahhas.

about all those news that you all heard of, lionel bringing me home, well it's not what it seems. i am not sure of my feelings for him luhs and well i did rejected him before but that doesn't mean anything ok guys. yeaps. today am going out with shawn! omg omg omg! ahhas. lots of girls are gonna envy me! cause i am going out with a big hunk! ahhas. well to be shawn's gf, you HAVE to get past ME first. not just anyone can be his gal. and well, i am! =D *just keep your dirty laundry out of my bed in future*

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manda, you mao mao. ahhas. yeaps. that's your new name. stop spamming my blog luhs. and erhem. MANDA THINKS EDWIN IS CUTE! ahhas. loud and clear. no denying luhs. everyone saw it!

so today's science practical was hard luhs. kept feeling peckish. and poor jing was like so blur luhs. the testtube holder in front of her, she still keep saying she cannot find it. omg! jing, please dont be so blur queen can? ahhas. edwin, i know how you feel but i just can't make myself to accept you and then be both miserable when we part. some people are just meant to be friends. i still love you heaps as my darling bro ks?

yes! am going to the airport to study tml. can't wait manda! i am gonna buy a ticket for you to honolulu of hawaii and put you there forever! of cos i will put one of your friends with you. A PANDA! =D heys, send me the pics we took today ahs. especially the one when i tried to strangle you. ahhas. priceless.

shawn! i love you luhs! ahhas. *muackies* thanks for that cup of relaxing smoothie yesterday. would have felt terrible without it. and sher is cleaning up her MESSY room luhs. can you believe it? i know. i can't either. maybe the real sher was captured by aliens. ahhas. remember what we talked about last night? omg! how cool luhs. please do stop being so lame ks? *lamers are always lame* i know. you can't change. =x

my evil side

am like studying hard for o's. ahhas. thanks jason for having that conversation with me that night and revealing all the answers. i know that you can't be carrying all the blame but you are the one at fault here. i can only wish you all the best with that girl now. =)

ahhas. manda, i am here. just not online these few days. mugging for o's you know. ahhas. edwin, thanks for being there for me and as to what you asked, i am sorry. we are somehow not meant to be, with or w/o jason in my life. but heys, you will always be my darling bro. lets keep it that way ks?

so my science practical is like tml luhs. omg! i AM nervous! manda, yes! lets go to changi airport viewing mall and study. ahhas. plus buy me smoothies uh. =D 'ps, i like panda flavour.'

guys, i admit that i was kinda lost aft the break but now it's all over. am gonna concentrate on my studies. peeps, lets work hard ks? STACY TAN REALLY LOVES EACH AND EVERYONE OF HER INDIVIDUAL PEEPS!

my evil side

so i have finally woken up from the dream that's too good to be true. it's like someone just threw an alarm clock towards me and woke me up from this dream all of a sudden. so that girl was right, jason ~~was~~ IS really her bf and he lied to me for so long. saying that he had a camp in school and can't bring his hp with him when he was actually with her spending the night at her house. come to think of it, am i the bitch that seperated them. since she and jason clearly started off earlier than we did.

and guys, i am really thankful for each and everyone of you for appearing in my life. =) i know sometimes i may be a lil childish and willful but please know that i really treasure everyone of you. especially manda, jing, nic, ning, lexa, lav, gene, mandy, maine, nel, edwin, elson, sher and shawn. you guys rock my life and caused a massive impact. love you to bits!

JASON LIM JIE SHENG please read this!
i am just so glad to have woken up before i dream any deeper and now that i have seen the real you, i have come to realise that it takes a long time for the mutual trust in a couple to develop and maybe we were together when we have only known each other for 2 months and so we don't really understand each other well enough. i have realised that i AM the bitch that stole you away from her. why? why did you make me that bitch? but it's alright. now that i have made my decision, i won't ever go back on it. so it's goodbye my once baby boy and i hope that you won't ever break any girl's heart ever again. i love you, even now i really still do, but i have to let you go and i believe that time will heal everything.

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sorry manda, for making you worried luhs. i just don't know why you, JASON LIM, must lie to me. if you don't even have that single simple trust in me over this 2 years then why continue on. might as well end it. so i had a nice talk with manda luhs.

manda the panda..[HELLO! MANDA IS HUNGRY!] says:
u sure u alrite?
`love me is what you once said. [is it really] J&S lil me says:
yeaps gal.
manda the panda..[HELLO! MANDA IS HUNGRY!] says:
why so sad yesday lahs?
manda the panda..[HELLO! MANDA IS HUNGRY!] says:
i thought who bullied u.u cried for the whole day.
manda the panda..[HELLO! MANDA IS HUNGRY!] says:
made me worried. ):
`love me is what you once said. [is it really] J&S lil me says:
sorry luhs gf. i cried cause of everything happening at the same time.
`love me is what you once said. [is it really] J&S lil me says:
i really don't wanna leave any of u luhs.
manda the panda..[HELLO! MANDA IS HUNGRY!] says:
silly gal.we aint going anywhere.we will still be here whenever you need us! (:
manda the panda..[HELLO! MANDA IS HUNGRY!] says:
I, MANDA THE PANDA SWEAR THAT I WILL ALWAYS LOVE STAC THE KITTY FOREVER AND EVER!WHENEVER SHE NEEDS ME, PANDA WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR KITTY!
manda the panda..[HELLO! MANDA IS HUNGRY! SHE LOVES STAC THE KITTY!] says:
happy?
`love me is what you once said. [is it really] J&S lil me says:
omg! i am so touched luhs. i love manda the panda too! *hugs*
manda the panda..[HELLO! MANDA IS HUNGRY! SHE LOVES STAC THE KITTY!] says:
yeah.so dun be sad ks?u will have me by ur side forever.i will love you and nv let you go! ((:
`love me is what you once said. [is it really] J&S lil me says:
ok gf. i will always love you.

am so touched by manda luhs. panda will always love kitty and kitty will always love panda. =D it's a deal and promise that no one can ever break. manda, we will always back each other up luhs. like, i love you like crazy gf!

my evil side

am still quite sad now luhs. but thanks galfrens! for being there for me. why am i sad? JASON LIM is responsible for it! i mean, imagine someone messaging and calling you to say that you stole her boyfriend and scolded you a slut. omg! how crude can. when i questioned him about it, he said that there's this girl in his class who's like in love with him and sends him love notes and yet he kept it from me! JASON LIM, who exactly am I to YOU? why do you keep all this to yourself and refuse to let me know? for fear that i might get the wrong idea? well now i am REALLY getting the wrong idea. even if you don't like her, you can't deny her from loving you and unless you put it straight across to her, she will just keep bothering me and you. it's like wtf luhs.

im-ed manda and jing. sorry to make you guys worried. i am fine luhs. =) just still thinking about lots of stuffs. and today was like ultra sadness. don't know why i cried so much. maybe it's cause i don't wanna leave you guys eventhough you are all still here with me. lin, i love the book you made especially for me luhs. thanks gf! sorry i am a lil bit gloomy today. and manda, no! i won't reply him unless he does something about it first.

JASON LIM, you btr explain everything to her once and for all. i do not wish to drag things on and on. i know i may sound unreasonable but that's what love is all about. i am sorry for being so childish as to what you always say. but i really hope that you can settle it and as to how she got my number, i do not and have no interest in knowing the answer.

my evil side

so i didn't went online yesterday. was released at 6pm luhs. and was so effin tired when i reached home. jason was like so gentlemen. i called him aft school yesterday to complain about the hot sun and my heavy bag, he said that he needed to do something so hung up and so i was like quite lonely. ahhas. all the others were waiting for their dad to pick them up. and well, mine? he's like busy with his work luhs. so of cos can't disturb him. so for like 5 minutes i was alone waiting for the bus which took like hours to reach! arrgh! and well a cab pulled up infront of me and jason came out. i was like 'wth. what are you doing here.' just because of what i said on the phone, he immediately rushed over to pick me up luhs. it's like his house is at cck and my school is at amk. quite far apart. so i thought that we will take the cab luhs but instead the cab just drove off. he wanted to walk to the interchange with me. omg! it's so far away but with him is like so nice. ahhas. =D
reached home at about 7.30 or so. and that sher caught us together. being her usual bitchy self. ahhas. she will definitely spread it to the whole family. whatever luhs.

so didn't attend school today. went to the airport to fetch shawn. and sher was like rushing me to hurry up when she wasn't even ready luhs. ahhas. shawn is like getting more handsome! ahhas. but girls out there, he's mine! all mine! no one can ever take him away from me! =D oh. and he bought me this cute lil brown bear with a heart. don't really care what he bought for the others. ahhas. thanks luhs bro. too bad jason cldnt get away from school today. he has like a important test. good luck luhs darl. and well, school is gonna end soon and i will definitely cry on that day luhs. gonna bring my d-cam and take lotsa pics.
something's wrong with my hp again luhs. gonna change it soon. so i im-ed alexa last night and she was quite heart broken luhs. darn it ***** just broke up with her. all because of another girl, belle. i mean she is such a whore. why do you even like her when you have alexa who is clearly a hundreds time more btr then that bitch belle.

`love me now, love me always. J&S lil me says:
omg! he's a jerk luhs. cheer up girl.
lexa is ultimately bored. he's forgotten says:
it is alrite..i can forget him..not worth it
`love me now, love me always. J&S lil me says:
good then. for someone like him seriously luhs.
lexa is ultimately bored. he's forgotten says:
yeah..well..thx for being there for me..
`love me now, love me always. J&S lil me says:
ok then. heys. i will always be here for you.
lexa is ultimately bored. he's forgotten says:
kks.
lexa is ultimately bored. he's forgotten says:
hey,i gtg now..im u later..loves..
`love me now, love me always. J&S lil me says:
ok girl. see you later. =D

so you see that guy? lexa can live on w/o a jerk like you in her life. and so i talked to jason about it for lexa and that jerk were together for like almost 3 years luhs. which makes me quite uncertain of my relationship with jason. eventhough he reassured me that he will never leave me unless i leave him first, i was still a lil uncertain. i mean, even a 10 years marriage can be broken. so what is a 2 years relationship. darl, please read this.

Jason,
to tell the truth, i have never been in such a serious relationship before.
all the previous romance of my life had been less than a year.
so now i am really glad that we can be together.
and so i will never leave you unless you do first.
this fear is gripping me.
i have never ever felt this strongly about a guy ever in my whole life.
and i am not sure what this feeling is about.
but i am very sure that it means love and it's towards you.
i will love you till the end.

my evil side

am so beat now. caught wtc and oh wow. it's effin nice luhs. nic, i will nv forget that u rejected me! ahhas. so gene was like so diao luhs. just right before the start, she suddenly ran out to buy popcorn when we already had like 2 large popcorns with us. yeaps. she's a popcorn lover. ahhas.

met up with jason after the movie. his camp ended at abt 1pm and then he just took all his bags and all and went to orchard to find me. omg! how touched. *beams* said he missed me so. ahhas. so of cos i cldnt make him lug all the bags and continue walking with me. so i helped him and we went to his house. sorry gals, left u all so early. so his mum was like so nice luhs. gave me cookies. ahhas. his lil sis is just so cute luhs. and jason was like taking forever to finish his bath. I ALMOST DIED OF HUNGER! went to have lunch with him and of cos, i ordered sushi! ahhas.

stupid brandon. went to remind me of someone. it's alr all over btwn us luhs. like so long ago alr. and jason actually asked me abt him. well, all i can say is 'i am sorry raymond.' and jason baby, i will nv leave u, unless of cos u stopped loving me. so went on to shop. and jason bought this ultimate cute heart necklace for me. thanks darl. there's school tml and a test. ultimate turn off. shawn just tagged me! omg! shawn, i miss u. i really do. come home my dear.

my evil side

woke up at 6am today. couldnt get to sleep after shadow woke me up. and elson was like so diao luhs. called me last night to ask maths and instead, he asked me abt chem. like wth. ahhas.'els, o's coming alr and u are still so blurry. OMG!' *faints*

so prolly gonna watch wtc today with manda and gene. not confirmed yet with lav, jing and nic. and yays! my jason baby boy is coming back from camp today. like so happy can. =D and just confirmed tt shawn is coming back next tues. another reason to smile today. prolly gonna meet jason aft the movie. hehs. had a very funny conversation with manda last night on msn luhs.

manda the panda..[Give me some pandan leaves and you shall be fine] says:
my lovely gal cheer up.
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
i know. thanks k?
manda the panda..[Give me some pandan leaves and you shall be fine] says:
ok gf.so ya meering jason tmr?
manda the panda..[Give me some pandan leaves and you shall be fine] says:
*meeting
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
yeaps. told him not to but he insisted. lols.
manda the panda..[Give me some pandan leaves and you shall be fine] says:
hahas.someone cares about u like duh. -.-"
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
hello?! i didnt ask him to meet me. i only wanted him to sms me.
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
i am NOT that inhumane. he must be dead beat from the camp luhs.
manda the panda..[Give me some pandan leaves and you shall be fine] says:
hahas.yeah.lucky you to have smeone whom misses u.
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
ahhas. what abt ur ******?
manda the panda..[Give me some pandan leaves and you shall be fine] says:
him?hahas.4get it.i can sneak by him with a 10inch atomic bomb and he wun even notice it.
manda the panda..[Give me some pandan leaves and you shall be fine] says:
like how lame can?
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
ahhahahas! seriously? omg! he's ultra lame luhs.
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
wonder what will become of sgp if he's a senior police officer. ahhas!
manda the panda..[Give me some pandan leaves and you shall be fine] says:
lol.yeah.prolly doomed.

so the conversation was like so lame luhs. and for safety reasons, the name of the guy will not be revealed. ahhas. it's like so boring now. waiting for the time to come. btr go bathe.

my evil side

stayed at the esplanade for the whole day luhs. sherlin was like 'please stac, can u like just sit down and read?' ahhas. what a lame sentence. of course NOT! i am stacy tan! how can i just sit down and read. it's so seemingly impossible luhs. went to the top for the view and took some pictures with sher. like so beautiful. especially the sunset. was so effin bored so went to buy some chocs and omg! how delicious it is. chocs make me high and i dont care about what effects it has on me. =D

just got news that shawn is coming back next week luhs. am like so happy now. i miss him sooooooo much luhs. and of cos, he btr bring me some goodies back from nz. hehs. nov is coming and i will miss lav. she's like going back to aus for 3 whole months! and OMG! LAV, I WILL MISS YOU! ahhas. be sure to msn me everyday rites? yeaps.

the open heart of my life is bleeding says:
omg.i will miss u guys. :(
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
yeaps. me too. must you leave?
the open heart of my life is bleeding says:
i will come back aft 3 mths.
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
ahhas. that be like 3 years! HELLO!
the open heart of my life is bleeding says:
nahs.just keep missing me.
the open heart of my life is bleeding says:
:)
the open heart of my life is bleeding says:
it'll keep me busy.hahas.
`it aint gonna end this way. J&S lil me says:
ahhas. yeah. will keep thinking of you. lulus.

is like so sad luhs. am starting to miss her alr even b4 she's gone. ahhas. so i didnt catch world trade centre today. but hehs. there's always tml. lulus.

my evil side

it's a whole new blog. and OMG! it feels so good to have a new blog. so yesterday was like so lame luhs. alexa was like so pissed off by brandon for bullying her. BRANDON, PLEASE STOP PMSING ALEXA. seriously, she's gonna get you someday. ahhas. went to town yesterday after school. jingqi was like 'why come to town when it's a sch day.' and edwin is like 'lmao. dont lame luhs. at home is like so effin boring can.' ahhas. love them to bits. so God'ems' went to swensen for icecream! and jingqi was stealing my icecream luhs. somemore with the help of nic. fine! both gang up to bully me. hmmph. am like so missing my darl now. he's in camp. Jason Lim Jie Sheng, you btr sms me immediately after your camp! ahhas. yeaps. i am a willful girlfriend.

heys guys. please taggy me. like changed my cbox. so yeaps. had heaps of icecream yesterday. am now like extremely bloated luhs. it's like f luhs. woke up at 4am and cldnt get back to sleep. miss him and how he would coax me to sleep. ahhas. but seriously. when are you coming back bro? ur lil sis miss you like helluva lots luhs. yays. today sherlin is like bringing me to esplanade. not that i need her to bring me. =D
so maybe gonna catch world trade centre. hahs. sherlin like totally forgot to close the gate of shadow's doggy house b4 bed. and of cos shadow came out and made a mess of the living room. ahhas. like hello! shadow is my good lil doggy.

have totally no mood for anything tml. missing my baby jason. why cant he bring his hp with him. ultimate turn off luhs.

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