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ok. so everything just came out and i brokedown in school. meaning? ahhas. i just went all out and cried my heart out during lunch break. ling, andrew and jon were all trying to console me but i guess it just made me worse. and HE had to walk pass the table right at that moment. i know that he saw me and his friends were like nugging him but all he did was just walked pass me. well, he did respect my decision and what i asked him to do. thank you! (: so ling accompanied me to the washroom and i was so damn fcuked up luhs. i mean, i promised not to cry. i was the one who wanted to end it all and yet i just can't let go. WHY? omg. maybe i am sinking into depression. ahhas.

but he is much better luhs. at least now that he's free, girls are flocking to him. and it's no kidding ks? girls are all either talking to him during lunch or finding him in his class and they will look at me with those damn slutty eyes. guess what? you sluts can have him if you want. because at the end, you will know why i left him. my eyes are darn painful now luhs. ling and andrew once asked me why. but all i said was, 'time'. and indeed it is. time lets you see everything better and fuller. i LOVED him but now, i am feeling neutral. (:

my evil side

this whole week was simply dreadful. why? i keep seeing him with his friends. wtfcuk. i tried not to look at him but it's just entirely impossible. strange enough, my heart doesn't feel any sourish or heartache. that's a good thing. (: had lunch with andrew. ling didn't come and jon went home because of some emergency. so andrew and i were left alone luhs. so poor thing. ahhas. poor andrew. ((:

crapped with andrew and took photos again. spastic spastic spastic can! ultimate breakdown. ):

my evil side

it's chinese new year. manda said that i am damn fcuked up. didn't even last till the first valentine's day between me and daryl. yeap. sorry daryl, that's the present huh? pretty screwed ain't it? sorry guy. (: and i made a promise to myself. i will never ever blog another post with the name daryl in it. unless of course it's another daryl. i will learn to forget about you.

went to town with manda, mandy, gene and ling. celebrated cny our way. ahhas. played with water in the toilet. hees! (: took a bottle filled with water and poured it all over manda. so like the toilet auntie came and we ran out ALL WET! everyone was staring at us and ling was like, 'wtfcuk. see what see? never see before is it? the cloud wants to rain on us also not our fault right?' omg. wth. ahhas. gene laughed like hell. and guess what? mandy was wearing a white tube with black bra. damn obvious luhs. can see right through. so manda said, 'eh mandy. becareful. later if accidentally my hand slips, oops!' ahhas. I LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS! <3.

jon called me and we crapped about stuffs. im-ed with andrew and bitched with lexa and watched some shows. talked to shadow and he ran away. argh. STRESS!

my evil side

loads happened in this 3 weeks. celebrated ash's birthday. computer broke down. lost shane's cd. quarrelled with SOMEONE. cried my heart out. cam-whored with andrew and ling. got to know nanah better. contacted mandy and arranged a long lost meeting for all GFs, GOD'EMs and buddies! (: went to town shopping with sher. crapped with nel. bitched with manda. broke up with daryl. yes. you read it correctly. BROKE UP WITH DARYL LIM JUNHAO! it's over between us. no more heart tearing session, no more night crying lesson, no more heart throbing moments, no more phone hogging passion and definitely no more quarrelling tortures. somehow, i should be happy. (:

manda girl, thanks for everything ever! I LOVE YOU! don't you ever forget that! ((: so i guess seeing him in school is going to be a real torture from now on. but it's alright. never will i ever be captured again. in case you guys are wondering, i initiated the break up. here's some word for you. (:

Daryl, i really do love you but ever since what happened, i just can't seem to find the love i once had for you again. sorry boy, i have to let you go. otherwise you will soon hate me for everything. i don't ever want that to happen. and i don't even want to remain as your friend. please forgive me. i just don't want to continue on this torture. if i continue to remain as your friend, feelings are going to start flying around. so please, if you see me in school, just don't talk to me. treat me as a complete stranger. don't look at me straight in the eyes. erase everyone's mind of us being together. make everyone else forget that we were once together. i am sure you will meet someone else better. (:

it wasn't easy for me to come to this decision but i know that daryl will respect my decision. <3

my evil side