kohzhihao; tanqianyi ♥

the fcuked up part of school today?
him.
i was going to the washroom and he suddenly appeared.
said some stupid lines like,
'hey, can i talk to you for a sec?'
like how lame can.
so we talked and talked for more than a second.
he went so weak on me.
said that he still reads my blog.
said what he still cares about me.
ahhas.
what plain bull shit.

and he practically broke down in front of me.
yes!
he cried!
DARYL LIM JUN HAO,
THE STRONG GUY,
CRIED!
i was quite frustrated at first,
but when i saw him crying,
my heart was confused.
so softly,
i asked him,
'why are you crying?'
but he didn't answer me.
he just kept his head low and continued crying.
but what can i do?
offer him a hug?
ahhas.
i offered him some tissues.
and he went right out and blurted,

'sugar, can we go back to how we were like before?'
'i know, i sound desperate but i regret what i did in the past.'
'i really do. please forgive me one more time.'
'you know that the times we spent together are unforgettable.'
'even you said so in your blog. that you can't completely forget me.'
'let me be your darr all over again and i promise that i will love you more than ever!'

well,
it may have sounded sweet and all,
but it was just too late.
so like i shoved him a packet of tissue and went off.
know what?
i felt like crying too.
deep down,
i am really lost when i saw his tears.
the first time i ever saw him cry.
but my heart was thinking of dee.
dee came up in my mind and i became strong in my decision.
i believe,
dee can make me forget him completely in due time.

but that pearlin ho is probably going to say somemore rumors.
w.h.a.t.e.v.e.r
just blame yourself that you can't keep your guy down by your side.
but it ain't nothing to be happy about on my side either.
this is an unwanted love, attention that he is giving me.

where were you when i really needed you?
what were you doing when i needed to talk to you?
did you ever acknowledge me in front of your girl friends?
please don't come and fcuk up my life again.
my life is slowly getting back to perfect.
but now with your disturbance,
it is slowly losing touch again.
so i beg you daryl,
please.
just take it that i am BEGGING you.
just leave me alone from now on.
pretend that we don't know each other.
i am actually crying right now.
but i know that one day,
these tears will dry up and disappear forever.
just like our feelings for each other once.
smiles ks?
don't ever again weep in front of a girl.
i know how you feel but it's all just too late.
i loved you once.
and that, i suppose,
is enough already yeah?
maybe one day,
we can once again be friends.
and that's all that we can ever be.
daryl,
be strong for everyone else around you ks?
be the strong guy i once know.
be the guy that i fell for back then.
and let yourself be in a serious relationship.
but never ever repeat your mistakes.
otherwise,
you will only regret it again.
daryl lim jun hao will be strong right?
daryl lim jun hao will be a successful doctor right?
daryl lim jun hao will find his dream girl soon right?
daryl lim jun hao will forget stacy tan qian yi slowly right?
daryl lim jun hao will be happy from now on right?
RIGHT!
(:
i hope to see you in school but not talking to you.

my evil side