i have to say those words to her. it's not because i want to see her upset, it's because i have to do it. i know that one day she will come to hate me for this but i really just want her to concentrate in her studies as well as concentrate in my studies too. but is 4 months really enough for me to prove to my mom? she is starting to control everything in my life. my friends, studies, clothes, internet usage and now, my yee. that's basically my whole life. i have had enough of it. but what can i do? confront her? no way. she's my mom. and no matter what, she will eventually get the last laugh and say. what about dad? he goes with mom in family matters. and because of this, my life is already coordinated. truth be told, i never expected yee to fall for a guy like me. yee is such a 'cool' girl. she's part of the 'fashion' girl and yet i am part of the 'fall out' guys. i can sense that yee did alot of changes for me. she changed her attitude, her words, her everything just for me. and yet, i can't even give her a stable and constant love. when mom said those words, i already knew what the last sentence would be. 'zhihao, you are still too young for a relationship. it's not that i don't allow it but can't your girl be more.................perhaps it's better if you break up with her and that is not an option.' why does this keep happening? doesn't she realize that by doing all this, she is pushing me further away from her? i know that she isn't happy because yee once brought me to a party and because of yee, i have been going home late at night. but doesn't she know that her son is happy? for once in his life, he gets to love someone whole-heartedly and that someone loves him too. if she claims that all that she did was for me, her son, then why can't she stop and think that actually now, her son is already very contented and happy with his life. it's not like i am her only son. why doesn't she pull the reigns tight on my bro too? is it because he is still young? well then too bad, because when he grow older, he is going to be wary of you just because he witnessed how you are controlling my life. i am turning 17 soon and yet she still treats me like i am only 7. ever since that day that i brought yee home, she has been showing me attitude and checking on me in my room every 20 minutes or so. forever asking me, 'zhihao, never call your girlfriend? stop spending so much time on the IT ok? spend more on studying and learning your piano.' my god. are all the mothers in the world the same? if so, then why is mine so much different? when i spoke those words to yee, she cried. my heart hurts terribly much. for the first time in my life, i felt what a broken heart felt like. when i hugged yee, i just wish that time will stop at that very moment. the ring, my pledge of love for her. no matter what, i will definitely go back to yee. my very first love, kiss, sweetness, passion and heartache. all happened when yee was with me. dee&yee. i will forever cherish and love. yee, trust me. i will come back to you. wait for me. iloveyou.