kohzhihao; tanqianyi ♥

im-ed with mandy.
and she wanted to watch
Evan Almighty
but i said,
'forget it. i have no mood.'
and she said,
'wow. you must be DAMN emo huh?'

ahhah.
you got that right.
i turned down a movie.
and one that i wanted to watch in weeks!
please tell me when will this feeling of mine fade away?
on and off.
and dee isn't even helping.
but yeah.
thanks anyway.

if only i can fly.
then perhaps i won't be so trapped.
been thinking things over lately.
am considering going over to australia.
with dad's encouragement,
i am confused.
been finding reasons to stay here
and at the same time,
finding reasons to go there.
contradicting myself.

my evil side

my day is seemingly good,
i guess.
shadow has been behaving himself lately.
he won't bark at anyone when i brought him out for walks.
which normally,
he does.
or pee on the legs of some bench.
or run about like a wild horse trying to scare off some puny little kids,
and then have a good woof about it.
i know i know.
he's mean just like his owner.

have been pissed off too.
called dee earlier on.
and without even 5 minutes into the conversation,
his msn rang,
and he gave some shitty excuses and wanted to hang up.
wthe.
so then called some others but ALL were too busy.
ok.
so i may sound a little self-centered.
but that's just the way i am.
in case you haven't noticed,
i am NOT exactly your typical 'goody two shoes' girl.
i have my own attitude too.

been bothered by some assy sucker in friendster and msn.
which explains the reason why i haven't been on for quite some time.
and then there's the 'friend factor'.
my friends are changing.
and changing fast.
have been losing touch with the others.
like lin,
lexa,
sandra,
maine,
edwin,
qin and loads more.
even if we chat on msn or on phone,
it will only last for a few minutes.

i love my JC life.
i do.
but somehow,
i just hope to go back to my secondary.
the life back then,
is just somehow more ...
relaxing?
but how can it be done?

promos are coming real soon.
and i haven't been hitting the books.
nothing sounds attractive to me anymore.
not even clubbing,
partying,
shopping,
outings or pure catching-ups.
will always give some lame excuses which i used to HATE
when others gave me those.
but now,
i am actually using it.
and how lame can your excuse get?
trust me.
really lame.

something as lame as,

'my dog's sick.
i need to stay at home with the poor little thing.'
or
'i can't find my matching outfit shoes,
so i think i am going to pass.'

yeah.
desperate is the word here.
i just somehow feel,
hideous.
like i need to be shield from the outside world.
need to be protected.
even going to work now,
it bores me.
but of course,
nel's motor rides,
that motivates me.
well,
sort of.

ok.
guess i am turning emo.
yeah.
urh,
just give me the strength to carry on with this life.
be it in people or anything else.
nothing is right.
damn hopelessly emotionally drained.

my evil side

whatever.
i am NOT going to bother myself with that IT.
rebuking IT is only a waste of my time.
my time is precious yeah.
((((:

and a BIG THANKS!
to all who commented.
but er,
just a wording though.
PLEASE state your NAME!
i won't bite.
:D

so yes.
please do state your BIG NAME!
even if you come up with a fake name,
i also won't know.
but at least have a NAME.
so that i won't keep thinking otherwise.
thanks.

working later.
nel is coming by to pick me up for work.
i totally heart him.
he rocks!

my evil side

GRAND OPENING!
my haloscan comment!
ahhah.
comment comment comment please.
(((((:

and that means YOU!
MANDA! <3

my evil side

add ons:
PROBABLY IT IS TRYING TO BE THE SECOND XIAXUE?
LOL

my evil side

i decided to be REAL nice
and cut that poor little creature some slack.
aww.
how kind am i?
ahhas.

and how am i going to do that?
well,
by posting what IT posted about me here!
i have screenshots but i will only put it up when necessary.
and here's the whole UNCUT post.

Yet another suspicious blog!
STACY TAN QIAN YI.
Ok now.
So who in the world is she?
Her blog, http://www.st-acyspasticlife.blogspot.com, indicates that she's a HOT girl. *coughs*
For all i know is that uptill now, she has no pictures up on her blog at all!
And her friendster account's dp is also a drawing.
So is she a FAKE?
The question is, a FAKE of what?
A POSER of the REAL STACY TAN QIAN YI?
Or just a makeup character of this so called, STACY?
Let me just get to the bottom of this and i will update soon!

edited.
Update on: 27/7/07
STACY TAN QIAN YI's blog is a FAKE!
From what i have collected and found out.
The person behind the blog isn't called STACY TAN QIAN YI.
HER real name is unknown but her purpose in creating the blog?
To live the life of the glamorous.
That's right.
Why would anyone want to do that through a blog?
Well, there are many reasons.
But let's just list out some obvious ones.

1. She is a sad and unhappy teenager or old women.
2. She never got to live a glamorous and sweet teen life.
3. She is envious of this STACY TAN.
4. She is a mental patient.
5. Just for fun.

Which one falls under her?
We will never know.
But one thing is for sure, her posts about her love life, bfs, friends and all are MADE UP!
YES!!!
MADE UP!!!
How i came to know about it?
SHE NEVER LINKED ANYONE OF THEM!
How can that be?
And she gets things mixed up too.
PFFFT!!!
FAKER!!!

Please disappear from the earth's surface so as to reduce wastage.
The earth's blogosphere is already countless and we DON'T need a POSER like you to add on to it.
If you want a blog, go get your own under YOUR name.

Decided to read on and sensed something wrong. *yes, my typical kpo attitude again*
Went to do a search up on friendster and found out some facts. *do email me if you want a more detailed info*
Re-read her blog again and when there's enough evidence, decided to add her to my list.
I know that she's probably going to see this post of her because of her WIDELY social circle.
Well, continue reading her blog for rebukes on me. *evil laugh*

Lastly,
if anyone out there knows this STACY TAN QIAN YI personally and wants to say something,
you are always welcome.
Or even the owner of the blog her/himself, do feel free to email me or comment me.
But please, only responsible and NON-violence comment will be approved.

note: please refrain from publishing this user's blog url in any of your site or deliberately spam her. if found doing so, you will be reported ASAP and actions will be taken. thanks.

had fun reading?
ahhhahahahahahahh!
RAHH!!
this is a rebuke.
REPORT ME?!
whatever luhs.
and what's her purpose you may ask?

I have created this blog purely for finding out FAKERS of celebs, people and everyday life.
So please do try and furnish me with blog urls that you think is a fake blog of someone or a poser.
Thank you.

lame'o?
you got that right.
(:<

my evil side

dig this!
stupid blogger,
whatever the name is,
went and wrote about me in IT's blog.
yes.
i use IT.
because IT clearly doesn't have a gender.

a part from IT's blog.

edited.
Update on: 27/7/07
STACY TAN QIAN YI's blog is a FAKE!
From what i have collected and found out.
The person behind the blog isn't called STACY TAN QIAN YI.
HEr real name is unknown but her purpose in creating the blog?
To live the life of the glamorous.
That's right.
Why would anyone want to do that through a blog?
Well, there are many reasons.
But let's just list out some obvious ones.

1. She is a sad and unhappy teenager or old women.
2. She never got to live a glamorous and sweet teen life.
3. She is envious of this STACY TAN.
4. She is a mental patient.
5. Just for fun.

Which one falls under her?
We will never know.
But one thing is for sure, her posts about her love life, bfs, friends and all are MADE UP!
YES!!!
MADE UP!!!
How i came to know about it?
SHE NEVER LINKED ANYONE OF THEM!
How can that be?
And she gets things mixed up too.
PFFFT!!!
FAKER!!!

Please disappear from the earth's surface so as to reduce wastage.
The earth's blogosphere is already countless and we DON'T need a POSER like you to add on to it.
If you want a blog, go get your own under YOUR name.

ahhahahahahahah!
puh-lease!
THIS BLOG IS UNDER MY NAME!
argh.
what's your purpose of doing up that blog anyway?
talk about blogosphere.
YOU too are hogging up the blogo system.
((((:<

YES!
THIS IS A REBUKE!
IF YOU ARE THAT GREAT,
why don't you post me a picture of yourself then,
and let ME judge if you are better than ME?
or perhaps my MADE UP FRIENDS?
ahhahahahahah!
i think you aren't even fit to be a part of my IMAGINARY FRIENDS.

bloggers,
please beware of this IT.
better start posting pictures of yourself in your blog if you haven't done so.
so as to be prevented from being called a FAKER.
oh and urm,
yeah.
contact me for the blog's url.
(((((:

my evil side

have been deep thinking recently.
i feel that there's a part of me that everyone should know.
especially those close to me.

let's start with when i was young.

Primary School
i was innocently bluffed into going to school
when i was young.
until i made some 'friends'.
but to me,
those 'friends' during primary 1,
2 or 3,
aren't really friends at all.
we were just lost kids,
trying to find some friendly common faces to get through
the years till we find some other true buddies.
i made some buds in primary 4.
alison,
cherlyn,
ke lun,
rayson,
angel,
amanda,
yun ting
and jaeden.
and we spent our last 2 years in
primary school stuck together.
there were no quarrels,
no fights,
no betrayals,
no nothing!
which when i think back now,
how did we click?
LOL
plus i fell in love.
if you call that love.

Secondary 1
i gradually lost contact with my primary buds.
came to my new secondary school.
fresh faces.
my dorky hairstyle,
geeky skirt length
and nerdy behaviour.
i was quite a loner and kept quiet throughout the
whole first 4 months!
wtfcuk.
it's true ks.
till the secondary 1 sports day.
i came to know manda,
jing,
gene,
lexa,
edwin,
elson
and nel.
after that,
i made more friends.
lin,
nic,
mandy
and qin.
(((((:
and we became one!
and i fell out of love.
and in love again.

Secondary 2
we were still in the same class.
but more joined us.
lav,
maine,
joc
and angelin.
(((((:
and we were like a rojak gang.
soon,
we had to slowly parted into different groups.
and thus,
came the God'ems,
GFs,
Bros,
Sis's and more.
our secondary 2 lives were exciting and colorful.
and i fell in love once again.

Secondary 3
things became to change.
skirts became shorter.
hair became messier.
behaviour became rebellious.
broken up into different classes.
elson transferred school.
also i got to know
jessica *elson's girl*
and shuandy.
but we still hung out after school and during recess.
we became the most arrogant bunch in school.
some betrayal began and backstabbing.
but the God'ems and GFs held on tight together.
(((:
parties and clubbing in the night.
till wee hours.
relationships,
BGR,
settled our problems together.

Secondary 4
lost our member due to stupid misunderstandings.
but still,
the rest are united.
fell out of love.
we were all stressed out by our exams.
encouraged each other.
treasure moments till the very end of secondary school life.
vowed never to lose one another even if we imerged into a different society.
<3
and i fell in love again.

Junior 1
same school as jing and her friend.
and daryl.
different class.
met andrew,
ling
and chee heong.
met more when we went to class.
nanah,
selene,
katish
and shakilah.
backstabbing by someone close.
fell out of love.
and in love again.

so that's basically my whole teenage life.

my evil side

it's been like ages
since i last saw shuandy.
miss her so bloody hell,
truckloads,
helluva much!
bunny junior.
<3

an addition to the list.

katish
shakilah

my school kakis.
(:

my evil side

work has been,
how should i put it.
ok?
ahhas.
i simply enjoy working
the night shift with joyce
and alan.
(((((:
they rock!

saving up to buy mandy's present.
oh yeah.
she's older than me soon!
how ...
corse right?
whatever.
i am losing it.

spastic camwhoring with ling in school.
and there's one where i look
exactly like a fcuked-up bitch!
omg!
omg!
omg!
can this be true?
that i am changing AGAIN?
hahahahahahHAH!

manda said that i am
sort of like evolving.
eh?
yeah right.
evolving into?
a panda?
LOL
i hope not.

going to the esplanade with my darlings tomorrow!
STFU!
i am NOT going!
hahahahah.
yeah as if.
(:

but honestly,
what am i doing with my life,
and my words.
totally major destruction.
plan to spend some quality time with dee tomorrow.
<3 him so much.
really,
can i hold on to him forever?
i want to and need to!

so let's compute the list of people tomorrow.
my CLIQUE loves!

alan
andrew
cheeheong
dee
evelyn
gene
jon
joyce
lav
lexa
ling
manda
mandy
nanah
nel
nic
selene
shafiq
shawn
sher
shuandy

and of course
some of them are bringing their own
clique there too.
but hey,
they belong in my lovely clique too.
(((:
but an agreement is made.
that after that,
we shall ALL go for dinner together.
and hang out till wee hours.
absolute <3

my evil side

and yeah.
dee and i are ok now.
at least for the time being.
but i do hope it last.
<3 dee loads!
hugs hugs hugs!
muacks!
<3

my evil side

hard to believe.
but I SKIPPED SCHOOL TODAY!
what?!
not that hard to believe?
humph!
xp

chatted with gene online.
and guess what?
we were freakily ON GOOD TIMING!
ohmygawd!
lovelovelovelovelove her!
my bestie huggies pampers.
(((((:

check it out.
smiles!

pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
wawa. iaia. miaomiao.
*same time*
GENEvie aka ah tong says:
wawa. iaia. miaomiao.
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
get out! don't copy me!
*same time*
GENEvie aka ah tong says:
get out! don't copy me!
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
shit!
*same time*
GENEvie aka ah tong says:
shit!
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
*smiles* that's my girl.
GENEvie aka ah tong says:
yeah. :D

LOL
great timing right?
simply hugs her!

read her blog.
and ripped off some things from her blog.
ahhahahahahah!
HAH!
enjoy it.
(:

idiotic philip!
keep on calling me veggie biscuit!
RAHH!
))):<<
&happy 3 years <3 hun!
muacks!
(((:

yeah.
and in case you don't know.
idiotic philip,
is the hun that she is referring to.
so in simple form,
idiotic philip = gene's hun
ahhas.
sweet 3 years for them luhs.
envious.

and then here's some more dedicated to ME!
((:

oi!
STACY OINK OINK!
wawa. iaia. miaomiao! :D
here's a story for you.
------------------
when i was in sec 1,
there's this girl named Fu Shan in our class.
cheena girl!
hahahahahah!
and she was anti-social.
like wth. :/
so one day,
we were chatting in class.
and right then,
lin was same class as me right.
so someone said something and lin wanted to say
'STFU'
but instead,
she said SHIT-FU!
and that girl turned around.
we stared at her for like 5 seconds then we broke out in laughter!
omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg!
damn funny can. :DDDDD

LOL
LOL
now don't ask me why she told me this story.
because frankly,
i have no idea too.
but she is one crazy girl.
<3

my evil side

ohoh!
and before this forgetful kitty forgets,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JON!
flipperti flipperti hop!
HOP HOP HOP!
<3 ya.

celebrating this weekend.

my evil side

wacoal bump!
ahhahahahahah!
sucker!

LOL
my favourite line to nanah.
and
HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY GIRL!
(((:

school was extremely FUN!
had lunch with ling,
andrew,
jon,
selene,
nanah,
zunting and cheeheong.

talked about stuffs on the net.
then we tried to communicate through our FOOD?!
omg.
i laughed till tummy aches.
andrew threw food towards selene
and jon together with zunting were aiming at ME!
wtfcuk.
2 against 1 poor defenceless me.
):<

crapped around in class.
rushed home to go online.
chatted with manda and deardear gene.
(((((:
it's the only time she's free to chat
when i am free.

check out our conversation below.
ehheh.
LOL

pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
wawa. iaia
GENEvie aka ah tong says:
wawa? iaia? miaomiao? :D
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
eh? ahhahahahah. good learner.
GENEvie aka ah tong [no idea what siao kitty is saying] says:
learned from the best! *beams*
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
huh?! siao kitty? o.0 woah.
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
learn from me then.
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
ready? GO!
GENEvie aka ah tong [now she's scaring me!] says:
okok. gogogo!
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
hEll0. ii aM stAcyy tAn. m0ii fwEnz cAll mii kittyy w0rs.
GENEvie aka ah tong [she's teaching me eNgliSh?] says:
nEh. euu d0nch c0piie mii w0r! ii cAn sUee euu 0ne euu kn0w?
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
eeeeeewwwwww. ii g0rt c0piie euu mEh? d0nt anyH0w sAee kiies?
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
iif n0rt lAter iis ii sUee euu. n0rt y0uu sUee mii.
GENEvie aka ah tong [0oh myy gAwd! pErrfEct eNgliSh!] says:
okiies! ii UndErstAnd liia0s. s0 euu giibe mii pAssingg grAdes n0rt?
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
sUre sUre. ii giibe y0uu A.
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
try writing that in your essay.
GENEvie aka ah tong [ii g0rt an A!] says:
hahahahahah! no problem! watch me fling
GENEvie aka ah tong [ii g0rt an A!] says:
*flung
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
cancan. will do will do.
pokepoke! [stac the powerLESS] says:
wawa. iaia. *smiles*
GENEvie aka ah tong [she's the BEST!] says:
miaomiao! :DD

LOL
LOL
LOL
our classic terms.
i <3 her.
(((((:

my evil side