kohzhihao; tanqianyi ♥

have been deep thinking recently.
i feel that there's a part of me that everyone should know.
especially those close to me.

let's start with when i was young.

Primary School
i was innocently bluffed into going to school
when i was young.
until i made some 'friends'.
but to me,
those 'friends' during primary 1,
2 or 3,
aren't really friends at all.
we were just lost kids,
trying to find some friendly common faces to get through
the years till we find some other true buddies.
i made some buds in primary 4.
alison,
cherlyn,
ke lun,
rayson,
angel,
amanda,
yun ting
and jaeden.
and we spent our last 2 years in
primary school stuck together.
there were no quarrels,
no fights,
no betrayals,
no nothing!
which when i think back now,
how did we click?
LOL
plus i fell in love.
if you call that love.

Secondary 1
i gradually lost contact with my primary buds.
came to my new secondary school.
fresh faces.
my dorky hairstyle,
geeky skirt length
and nerdy behaviour.
i was quite a loner and kept quiet throughout the
whole first 4 months!
wtfcuk.
it's true ks.
till the secondary 1 sports day.
i came to know manda,
jing,
gene,
lexa,
edwin,
elson
and nel.
after that,
i made more friends.
lin,
nic,
mandy
and qin.
(((((:
and we became one!
and i fell out of love.
and in love again.

Secondary 2
we were still in the same class.
but more joined us.
lav,
maine,
joc
and angelin.
(((((:
and we were like a rojak gang.
soon,
we had to slowly parted into different groups.
and thus,
came the God'ems,
GFs,
Bros,
Sis's and more.
our secondary 2 lives were exciting and colorful.
and i fell in love once again.

Secondary 3
things became to change.
skirts became shorter.
hair became messier.
behaviour became rebellious.
broken up into different classes.
elson transferred school.
also i got to know
jessica *elson's girl*
and shuandy.
but we still hung out after school and during recess.
we became the most arrogant bunch in school.
some betrayal began and backstabbing.
but the God'ems and GFs held on tight together.
(((:
parties and clubbing in the night.
till wee hours.
relationships,
BGR,
settled our problems together.

Secondary 4
lost our member due to stupid misunderstandings.
but still,
the rest are united.
fell out of love.
we were all stressed out by our exams.
encouraged each other.
treasure moments till the very end of secondary school life.
vowed never to lose one another even if we imerged into a different society.
<3
and i fell in love again.

Junior 1
same school as jing and her friend.
and daryl.
different class.
met andrew,
ling
and chee heong.
met more when we went to class.
nanah,
selene,
katish
and shakilah.
backstabbing by someone close.
fell out of love.
and in love again.

so that's basically my whole teenage life.

my evil side