kohzhihao; tanqianyi ♥

those confirmed so far.

4G'ers
amanda.
nicole.
stacy.
genevie.
mandy.
edwin.
hui qin.
jocelyn.
yi kai.
mei chun.
bernard.

Friends
germaine.
wen lin.
elson.
jessica.
angelin.
nelson.
mei chun's bf.
philip.
ling.
andrew.

looks like heaps already yeah?
but it's NOT ENOUGH!
4G'ers!
so few only?
11 peeps going?
omg.
*faints*
come on people.
GET ACTIVE!
i have already posted on friendster and everywhere else i can think of.
plus have sent an email to all of you guys!
so COME!

see all of you there.
(:

my evil side

we hope that all 4G'ers will come for the gathering.
especially those long gone ones.
like mathilda,
sherry,
jennifer,
shakilah,
atika,
laniyah,
sheng le,
zhong ting,
haiqah,
shannon
and so many more.

please people!
COME FOR THE GATHERING!
even if you aren't free,
just at least give us a call or email us.
and then maybe we can figure something out.
a date or venue where ALL of us can make it.
but just don't brush it off and say,

'sorry,
i am not free on that day.
miss you guys.'

because if you really miss us,
then YOU WILL COME!
or at least let us change the date/time/venue to everyone's liking.
so no matter what,
just at least inform us which date you will be free on.
cheers!
((((((((:

my evil side

CALLING ALL 4G'ers!

It's the very first class gathering after our O's.
Meet up with your long lost friends and have fun.
Doesn't matter where you are now,
once a 4G'ers, forever a 4G'ers.

Details
Date: 30th September 2007
Time: 4pm till LATE NIGHT
Venue: Amanda's House
*please contact amanda at manda_lady@hotmail.com for address

Entertainment
Barbecue session
Dance fever
STUDY GROUP?
Games
*you can bring along some refreshments too

Rates
$10/- each 4G'ers
$12/- others
*means that you can bring along someone else, be it your otherhalf or friend

There will be no alcohol served and please do not bring alcohol there.
THANKS! (:

Once again, we look forward to seeing many of you guys there.
If in doubt of any details, please contact amanda, stacy or nicole.
Please give us the info as to whether you will be attending as we need to get the food and refreshments.
Latest by 27th of September.

Contact
Class Email: 4g'ers_2006@hotmail.com
Amanda: manda_lady@hotmail.com
Stacy: kissykittystacyme-@hotmail.com
Nicole: niclowhl@hotmail.com

See you there! :D

my evil side

contacted all long lost classmates.
except for some who are really lost.
have collected information from them
and planning the gathering is on the way.

nic have already a rough idea as to how it will be.
getting the info from her later.
so those whom we have lost,
and you found yourself,
contact either me,
manda,
or nic.
and give us the info whether you can make it.

details will be up soon.
cheers!
(((((:

at least there's something
i can look forward to

my evil side

i super heart manda!
thanks loads girl.
(((((:

manda's point of view.
the angry side.

stupid shitty girl. if you have anything that you are not happy about, please kindly go find my girl, stacytan. dont just ass about in your blog and then say what, 'omgg..ii am so freakiing scaredd..'. go be a bitchy asshole elsewhere hokay. and yes my dear bitch. if she wants to get you, you would have been long dead by now. she decided to let you off but you are now accusing her of bitching about you? ahahahahahahh! RAHH! let me tell you, stacytan is not going to let this go lying down and me, manda as her panda am not going to let this pass too. as for MR. KOH! look here. yes. i am and will find trouble with your darling. let's see how long you two will last together. it's your loss for letting go of my girl. let me tell you now, she doesnt just anyhow choose a guy like that bitch here. you should thank your lucky stars that she accepted you. let's just say that she was blinded by love. so now i am telling the both of you here, WATCH OUT! because anything concerning my kitty girl, is my problem too.

omg.
manda,
i totally love you!
hugs! <3

and then there's the emotion side.

stacytan you nitty. better dont ever leave for aus i tell ya. if you ever do that, i am going to kill you inside out. meet up soon hokay? i miss you so ever much. and lexa gives her regards. GFs shall have a reunion soon. but i guess if you ever decide to run to aus, lexa will be there to welcome you with open arms. ahhahah. and lav. she wants a meetup sometime next week. should be a'okay with you right? i know you miss us as much as we miss you. maybe someday our class should meet up and then we can crap about our crappiness once again. give me a call k? and we shall plan the class gathering soon. details details. love, manda. (:

aww.
i super uber love her.
she's my panda and that's never gonna change.
so yeah.
if any of our ex classmates whom we have lost contact with is reading this now,
CONTACT ME!
and we shall have a class gathering soon.

hah.
manda always cheer me up.
(((((:

my evil side

it's pretty obvious whether you stole him away or what.
because if you didn't,
then he wouldn't have chosen you.
if you didn't throw yourself at him,
would he have left me for you?
ahha.
face up bitch.
and stop bitching like
thiiss.
eww.
might as well go fuck your own brother.

my evil side

omg.
fuck you kohzhihao.
fuck you leejiamin.
shit luhs.

that kohzhihao actually PLEADED with me to NOT FIND TROUBLE WITH HER!
wth.
you think i am so free is it?
well,
i am NOT!
and since when did i say that i am going to find trouble with her?
if i am going to find trouble,
also will find with you.
so don't worry you ass.

leejiamin.
get this clear.
I AM NOT GOING TO FIND TROUBLE WITH YOU!
no way.
i am not going to waste my time on you.
and your blog post.
wth.
i am KIND ks?

omgg..ii readd her bloggiie..nn she iis angryy wiith miie...how? ii toldd deardear le..nn deardear says that he will takee care fer miie...she iis meann lahh..say what ii stole deardear awayy from her..ii never lohh...deardear chose miie as his choiice wiithout force de lohh..ii knoww that she iis jealous but hor, also cannot blamee miie de mahh..iif euu reallie want to find trouble, come lahh..ii not scaredd de lohh...got deardear wiith miie nn my darliings, come lohh..iif not hor, dontt anyhow say hor..laterr people thinkk otherwiise thenn diie liiao lohh..laterr people thinkk iis ii stole deardear away from her de...thenn how? what will the otherss thinkk of miie riight? haiis..bo biian lohh..sincee she want to say untiil likee that thenn ii also no choiice liiao lohh...so havee to tell deardear..

wth.
wth.
wth.
wth.
wth.

leejiamin.
you bitch!
you slut!
don't think i don't dare to find trouble with you
just because of him.
let me tell you.
if i want to,
you will be long dead by now.

pissed off.
ruined my whole day.
and kohzhihao.
don't push it ks.
i have a limit too.

my evil side

i am aimlessly wandering around here.
whenever i close my eyes,
i can still feel the wetness of our first kiss.
the warmth of our first touch.
the electricity of our first sight.
now it's all gone.

i just went to read her blog.
and she's delighted plus scared?
LOL
there's no need to be scared bitch.
since you can steal him away from me,
why the hell be scared?
i am not exactly so mean ks?
yeah right.

read this.

today my dear called miie..wahahaha...ii am super happiie can..and we went out to townn..he bought fer miie a pooh bearbear...aww..super sweet de...nn we bought a couple riing..wiith our names engravedd in iit..took neoprintss plus playedd wiith e arcade de gamess...he treated miie to swensens wiith icecream..wakakaka..ii askedd him to accompaniie miie to topshop to see clothess..he likee miian qiiang go wiith miie de...but horr, thankss lehh deardear..muackks! now ii am a liitle scaredd..why lehh? becozz of her. my dear de pastt her. ii know that she iis a liitle scaryy...nn she likee now see miie bu shuangg lehh..how nehh? iits nort my faultt that dear wants miie insteadd de mahss...so why mustt she be so meann to miie lehh? somemore we same class duringg sciencee lessonss..hmmm...what will happenn lehh? will she still hatee miie so much? nevermindd..ii still havee my deardear...nn ii wonnt be so scaredd le..heehee...deardear, wo aii nii..muackkies!

omg.
i almost went blind while reading.
but...
ahha.
can see that he really loves her.
because he NEVER,
i repeat,
NEVER goes to town with me during the weekends.
why?
because he needs to study.
and yet...
i am speechless.

my evil side

i guess this time it's real.
i have decided to go over to australia to study my law.
maybe then,
i will clear my mind thoroughly.
but dad says that i won't be going just yet.
will have to wait till i finish my JC1.
or maybe even my JC2.
we shall see first.

am making the arrangements now.
is my decision the right one?
i have no idea.
let time tell me the answer.

my evil side

super emo.
went to view his blog again.
and this time,
his post is all about HER.
fuck.

and the date?
16.09.07
eh.
hello?
we were still together then ks?
and he has already proposed to her even BEFORE we broke up.

that's it!
i have been used enough by JERKS!
stacytanqianyi,
you are NOT A TOY!
and kohzhihao,
you are NOT MY GUY!
I AM DEFINITELY NOT YOUR TOY!
assfucker.

i have already told you that you will regret it.
and now i do not want you back ever again.
trust me.
somehow,
i will make you regret your decision.
enjoy your happiness now.

stacytanqianyi,
tell me.
how to be happy?
how to be carefree?
how to forgive the wrongs?
how to be a saint?
LOL
as if stacytan ain't saint enough.

perhaps finding a new guy?
or rebound guy
just to aid me to get pass this period.
but then,
that will make me a slut.
ahha.
whatever luhs.

or plan some wicked revenge?
no?
too mean?
nah!
it ain't too mean.
he deserves it.
(:<

or maybe study hard for my promos?
and surpass him.
prove to him that i too can study hard?
because I CAN!

him.
him.
him.

is that all that you can talk about?
it's time to forget him and move on.
stupid mind.
fucked up life.
assy promos.
and great hoes friend!
(((((:

going out to work later and meeting manda after that.
plus kaleb.
he has been pestering me non-stop.
and he wouldn't mind being my 'rebound guy'.
but kaleb.
you deserve better.

my evil side

agreed that we both needed some quiet time alone.
so guess this is a 'temp break'?
LOL
there's no such thing as 'temp break' stacy tan!
WAKE UP!

promos are coming soon.
and yet i am facing such an emo scene.
stupid relationship.
stupid fcuked up stacytan.
damn you.

kohzhihao,
i think your answer is quite obvious.
as to who is your final choice.
there's just something puzzling to me.
as to why did you change your heart so fast?
no doubt that you were lying to me all this time?
LOL
i must have been blinded by you.

an extract from his blog.

we broke up. it's a torture trying to be lying to her constantly. i once truly loved her but ever since what mom said, that she's not the right girl for me, i slowly came to realise that mom was right. stacy is a party girl and i just can't give up my studies to go partying with her. *her, on the other hand, is a studious student like me. everyday after school, i will have someone to study with and i will feel more at ease on the phone with her. but when it's stacy, i will feel like i am being forced to talk to her on the phone as we have nothing in common. if only i didn't propose to her on that night, if only i waited to understand her more. i have broke her heart and now, she's shattered. i am sorry stacy. perhaps this time, you will grow up more. i once loved you.

so anyway,
i guess kaleb somehow found out about the break from work,
and now he's making his move again.
sms-ing me and calling me.
but kaleb,
please.
not now.
just not yet.

fcuking emo now.

my evil side

maybe i am tripping?
LOL
but i think i am going back to becoming my slut-self.
went on to a chatroom and chatted with GUYS ONLY.
and chatted with this particular guy throughout the day.
he seems quite nice and so,
i told him about my problems.
and well,
he wants to meet.
ahha.

for the whole entire day.
what have i been up to?
flirting with guys.
yes.
flirting
and that's not just it.
have been feeling the urge to meet up with them too.
ok.
i am sounding really psycho
and desperate?
whatever.

my evil side

i am blogging for you to see.
yes.
only for you.
you asshole.
you shit fcuker.
you damn it sucker.
you precious baby boy.

any idea how much it hurts me when i saw you with her?
no?
but you know what?
i am willing to forgive you.
why?
because i love you so much.
much more than any of the others out there.
since the day i accepted you,
i have already given my whole heart to you.

and please.
i have never done that before.
i have never ever given my whole heart to a guy before.
and the only reason why i did that to you
was because i truly believed that you will be my forever one.
with your sweet actions and words.
i was captured.
and yet, now you broke every piece of me up.
leaving me behind with a broken heart.

this time it's different.
normally when i break up with someone,
i get over it.
but this time,
it's really wholly different.
don't blame me if i am going to do anything wrong to you.
don't blame me if you realise that i am destroying life.
all because i love you.
just so terribly much.

you may say that i am just kidding.
gaining some sympathy.
but boy,
i am not.
i really don't wish to lose you.
and i am prepared to do anything to gain you back.
trust me.
but don't worry.
i will still think logically.

iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
iloveyou
&i want no ~~fullstop~~

my evil side

had a heated arguement with dee.
we were supposed to go for steamboat session together,
didn't we?
but you were too pre-occupied with your sms-es to entertain
HER!
and when i asked you what were you doing,
you used that kind of a harsh tone and said,

'nothing!
just sms-ing.
why?
also cannot?'

so i kept quiet and asked who is it?
you once again brushed me off.
till your phone rang.
you walked off to answer and when i questioned you,
you said that it was your guy friend.
but i saw her name.
i knew that it was her.

naturally, i felt sad.
wanted to get some air and thought that you will comfort me.
but you didn't.
and yet you even chided me for not helping out the steamboat!
i had it and shouted at you.
you shouted back and then walked off.
leaving me all alone.

manda and the rest came over but i was too heartbroken to say anything else.
my heart sank.
there can only be 1 answer to your change.

~~you no longer love me anymore.~~

i have tried to make this as painless as possible.
but i just can't do so.
i love you just so terribly much.
even when i sometimes shouted at you,
i still do love you.
but why?
where did your love for me go to?
if you really feel that you have no more feelings for me,
then i accept it.

maybe it's my retribution?
karma?
for dumping the guys whom loved me so much before you.
nothing can account for the sudden change in you.
i sms-ed you but you didn't reply me.
i missed call you but you didn't call me back.
i went to find you but you weren't at home.
i waited for you during lunch time but you didn't find me.
i am depressed.
and it's all because of you.

my evil side

a short update.
deleted my comments board.
don't ask me why.
can't keep up with life.

dee,
can you feel my sadness?
when i saw you with ___,
what's going on in your mind?
don't you care about me?

my evil side