kohzhihao; tanqianyi ♥

it's twirling.
my exams.
my promos.
ok.
basically,
my papers.
(((((:

don't get me?
don't worry.
me neither.

been facing some problems with my health.
coughing and flu.
feverish and pain.
oh god.
how to continue on with my studies?
and him.
he isn't doing much to help me either.
only giving me more weight to pull me down.

thinking of going MOS tonight.
but manda is not free.
she has got some project to finish off.
and my God'ems aren't free too.
plus my peeps are all seemingly busy these few weeks!
omg.
major breakdown.
social outbreak.
wtfcuk.

and so my last resort will be to ask...
...
...
...
...
...
...
SHADOW!
to go with me.
ahhahahah.
don't be stupid luhs,
stacytan.
like as if shadow enjoys going there.

but don't worry.
nothing is ever too late till 7pm tonight.
be it if i have to pay to get in.
who cares?
not him.

ok.
so i have been surpressing myself for long enough now.
and it's time to let it all out.
stacytan,
you can do it.
right?

i have been forcing myself to forget this.
this short 3 months together.
i have been trying very hard to forget the relationship.
it's short but it's sweet too.
went to read all of the past posts and my tears fell.
oh for god sake.
stacytan,
can you don't be so strong and lighten up a bit?
can't you just admit that you still have feelings for him?
it has only been 3 weeks.
how can you forget someone in a short 3 weeks?
stacytan,
stop being such a stuck up snob and come back down to earth will you?
stop betraying your heart and face up to the facts.
you still love him and you know it.

yes.
and i still know it.
but...
it's just so hard to do so.
what do you want me to do?
go up to him and say,
'hey, get back together with me ok?'
lowdown.
and yes.
i am stuck up.
but that's who i basically am.
that's stacytan.

get this.

hmmm..ii brokee up wiith hiim le...why nehh? becausee he neber giive miie ennoughh tiime to spendd wiith miie dee...maybiie breakk liiao wiill hapiier? nn thatt stacytan wonnt comee nn fiind miie aniimoree? hmmm..toopiid leonard..saee wantt call miie tiill now stiill habenn call...ii cantt waiit to go outt wiith hiim lahh...at least he stiill giives miie tiime nn companiie..nortt liike that guy..neber giive miie companiie de...leonard saee, 'breakk liiao good..dontt need someeone liike hiim de..'..erhhh, what iit means lehh? ii also dontt know...guess ii am spendiing tiime wiith leonard now..he treatts miie very good lohh..always buyy miie thiings nn foodss..makee miie fat only...but he saee fat liiao he also want miie...wakakaka..he toopiid lahh...nn to hiim horr, pleasee dontt comee fiind miie le lahh..ii dontt feel aniiting fer euu le..nn stopp calliing miie le...should learnn to giive up bahh..miian qiiang iis meii youu xiin fu de..so happiie now...lata goiing outt wiith leonard nn eatiing steamboatt..leonard treatt miie lehh..hmmm...haoo xiin fu aww..(:

omg.
she totally sucks luh.
what kind of a girl is she?
and i thought that she is a gentle,
kind and nice girl.
who would have thought that she was such a...
SLUT!
yes.
slut.
going out with some other guys so soon?
yes.
say i am whatever you want.
because i admit,
i am helping him out.
there's no hiding for that.

my evil side