kohzhihao; tanqianyi ♥

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i thought that i can handle the pain.
the heartache.
the horror of seeing you there.
so peacefully.

alas, i can't.

/.23.1.08
we met up and walked to the church down cityhall.
i hugged the presents i had for lav tightly in my arms.
when we stepped into the prayers hall,
the atmosphere was weird.
solemn.
caught sight of lav's parents.
they were getting ready for the prayers.
we walked over to the wooden bed that held lav in it.
i thought that i can hold back my tears.
but in the end when i saw lav lying there lifeless,
i cried.
we all cried.
there were lots of teddy bears and flowers by her side.
i left some of our photos and a small teddy bear for lav.
she always loved teddy bears.
we got ready for the prayers.
i couldn't concentrate but i tried my very best to.
afterall,
the prayers are for lav.
my beloved lav.
after the prayers,
we gave our blessings to lav one last time.
her parents are going back to australia after the funeral to settle some things.
cried on the way home.
and cried the whole day.
didn't answer dee's calls.

today,
i am feeling much better.
though there's this emptiness in me.
going to meet darling clique tomorrow.
even though i am afraid of being reminded of lav,
i am still looking forward to meeting them.

going to try to sleep now.
i know,
it's still early.
but yeah.
moodless

my evil side

Heat up ♥

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This is me ♥

IAM STACYTAN
MYNICKS STAC&KITTY&YEE
CURRENTLY 18
DATE 28thSEPT
blissfully attached

My loves ♥

MANDA MYPANDA
ZHIHAO DEE
NELSON MYDARLINGBRO
KELING MYTWIN
ANDREW MYBROE
JONYE MYHUNNYBRO
SHERLIN MYBITCH
SHAWN MYHUNK
MUMMY MUMMY
DADDY DADDY
SHADOW BABYDOG

Hoes & Bros ♥

PANDA & KITTY
DEE&YEE
AJLS
NEL & STAC
GF's

My Prerogative ♥

&Don't judge me base on a few comments.
.You don't even know me.
&This is my blog.
.I type whatever I want here.
&You have no rights to discriminate me for my language.
.I bet you use them too.
&Kohzhihao is mine.
.Yes he is.
&My friends are my life.
.If you object to that, then poor you.
&Lastly, I am StacyTan.
.And this is MY BLOG.
Need I say more?

Arigatou ♥

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