kohzhihao; tanqianyi ♥

will you let me hold on to you tightly and never let go?

i admit that i have never been an apologetic person.
i don't like the feeling of guilt and being in the wrong.
seriously, i never meant to hurt you.
and i definitely don't wish to lose a good friend like you over this issue.
i wish that we can just go back to the good ol' times.
ok.
here goes.

kaleb, i apologize for being a bitch.
i was just feeling damn down when i had a fight with zhihao.
&yes.
i called you out purely because i wanted zhihao to become jealous.
i don't know why i kissed you.
that gave you a wrong impression that i like you.
but no.
i don't.
i know that you were hurt when i rejected you.
i am really sorry.
i really never meant for it to turn out this way.
if you are reading this, please answer my call.
i really want to apologize for my lowdown behaviour.

i feel so damn sick.
perhaps i am not suitable to be in a relationship.
i am not a very good girlfriend.
i guess even if zhihao or kaleb forgives me, i still won't be able to forgive myself.
just let me die please.

my evil side

dig this.

you fucking bitch stacytan. do you think that all the guys love you? first jason, then daryl then this zhihao. plus all the others like alan, kaleb, andrew, nelson, jonye, edwin, elson and your brother shawn. you think they are being nice to you because they are sincere? they just want to get into your pants/skirt and screw you. all in the name of sex. look at your brother and his 5 years girl, evelyn. learn form it. please dont be so dumb and naive in believing that guys are trustworthy. if possible, do turn butch. girls are much more loving. do reply me yeah.

ok.
this sender has serious mental problem.
she's either a lesbian or bi.
i replied and not in a nice tone.
anything.
i think i don't need her to tell me that not all guys are trustworthy.
but there are exceptions k.
and please don't draw conclusions that shawn was just toying with evelyn.
because he wasn't.
you don't know shit so don't blacklist his name.

happy national day.

my evil side

let's face it.
i told you earlier that if you still continue on, sooner or later, she's gonna find out.
now, BAM!
i withdraw myself from this battle.
good luck though.
(((((:

now for something worth celebrating.
shawn and alicia will be holding their engagement dinner this sunday at some hotel in orchard.
i am still quite blur about it.
because everything has been happening so fast.
but a good news for sure, i am beginning to accept alicia more.
shawn invited evelyn as well.
i do hope she goes and with a smiling face.

moving on.
this alan tay is seriously getting on my nerves.
he calls me at least 5 times a day?!
and sometimes at 1am.
he's clearly very interested in my relationship with dee.
what truly freaked me out was that he can actually tell me in detail what dee did for the whole day and who dee met and whether dee was with another girl behind my back.

tell me, freaky not?
it's like he's a stalker.
dee asked me to change my number and that he will get a line for me.
but i don't see the need to.
what for go through the hassle of changing no and then informing everyone; one by one.
might as well just start to ignore him and slowly withdraw him from my life.
i think he either doesn't have a life or his life sucks.

menstrual cramp.
fuck.
missed school because of this.
i guess i drank too much ice.
jon will be delivering my homework to me later on behalf of dee.
i am off to make a hot cup of cocoa.
byebye.

my evil side